weather, observations, feeling

last updated: 18/02/25

18/02/25: feeling: alright

today was sunny, it was pretty nice

i played videogames today, after so long..

i have been working on assignments for these past few days so i couldnt

heres some steam screenshots..some old and some new:

this is my 3rd time replaying cry of fear

i remember the first time when i played it..it was very fun but i was clueless

now that i know how to play it, i still find it fun

i guess some things dont change ┐(￣ヮ￣)┌

14/02/25: feeling: like always

today was very sunny it reminds me of summer

i dont know how to explain how to how i feel today

i think i dont really feel anything today

i cant help and wonder...but think about a song especially the end its seems to be

a sample from a movie

"People always end up the way they started out

No one ever changes

They think they do, but they don't

If you're the depressed type now, that's the way you'll always be

If you're the mindless happy type now, that's the way you'll be when you grow up"

people dont change, this quote explains what i have been thinking about

these past few days

11/02/25: feeling: the same but hateful

today was dark like always again

weather is almost like a pathetic fallacy of life lol

today i was alone at college and also yesterday my friends didnt come in

that day, its been a while since i ever talked to anyone

if i do talk to anyone most of the time its them trying to have small

talk or asking me for a favour, its all pathetic

i dont even care anymore i have been enjoying these days alone, i know most

people will find it sad but its really not

i was cursed with some type of unbearable loneliness since birth..isolated from the start

its night i will sleep soon since i have college tomorrow

goodnight...

09/02/25: feeling: nothing

today was slightly sunny but it was mostly dark

i didnt feel anything today neither sad or happy

i was tried, i had to go the airport with my whole family to pick up my mum

i was glad to see her again

i am watching house right now while writing this, i just finished season 4

the last episode was pretty sad

i think i should start posting on my blog soon..

07/02/25: feeling: the same

today it was dark like always

i was very alone today and well these past few days, i didnt talk to anyone that much

but for the first time i actually enjoyed it

most of the time i try to act like i dont care about my loneliness

but it really hurts me in some way

but now i dont even feel anything i enjoy it in someway

i am starting to hate talking to people now its just dreadful

people also have been annoying these days, i have been wanting to isolate myself even more

30/01/25: feeling: unbearable lonely

today was sunny for once

i didn't have college today so i slept throughout the morning

i dont know how to explain how i feel..i hate it

i was really lonely

29/01/25 20:41pm:

average webmasters log lol:

29/01/25: feeling: misanthropic

it was another dark day and it was cold too

the true human experience is only suffering

people are unhappy with their lives, we all want to strive for something deeper

27/01/25: feeling: the same

it was raining a lot today..i didnt mind it

had 3 sleepless nights until last night where i finally managed to get some rest

i keep fantasizing my own death...almost all the time

27/01/25: feeling: miserable

it was dark outside today, the sun wasn't out today just a endless amount of clouds

i keep thinking of the past...